"the girl really worth having won't wait."

If you cheat on my friend, & all three of us must see one another in a professional setting, what makes you think that messaging me on Match is a good idea?

Whilst on bed rest, my best friend less than a week ago texted me at 10pm asking what my rent is. Her sisters friend from grade school-high school was looking for a tenant just a few blocks from my current place. 10 min later I’m on the phone with the woman & 2 days later she’s hugging me after we agreed I’d move in on June 1. (Far different from my current landlady.)

And over the weekend my bffl found my favorite flavor of Ralph’s as it seems that all the rest in Suffolk County are out. It’s chocolate chip cheesecake, in case you were wondering.

My bffl has been through more shit than most people have experienced in a lifetime, but I’m so beyond grateful that she’s in my life. She has made sure I made it home safe after every 1st-2nd date with a stranger & encourages me when I have ‘guys’ ‘work’ sucks moments. She’s a thoughtful friend & today her dreams came true, she got to meet her son :) I’m ecstatic for her & her adorable husband.

As I’m writing this a friend of mine from elementary school just texted me, asking where she should send my invite to her sons Christening, as I move a lot according to her. Lol. And she didn’t know about this move…. Haha

Apparently I’m on a roll tonight I just wanted to say I’m beyond behind on my google reader & I miss tumblr verse so bad, I promise I’m not ignoring you all forever

I was THAT girl last week, I couldn’t help myself. I’ve been having bi-weekly conversations with a reservist who normally lives close but who is currently stationed in VA thru late summer. We had one date the first week in April, which went better than any day dream, minus when I got all annoyed I only saw him once during his trip home. For that I vented to my girlfriends, remained calm whilst talking to the reservist.

Last Thursday I asked him if we were exclusive, even though my brother said I shouldn’t. Even though the reservist had said he wasn’t looking to rush into anything. He said he thought it was too soon, I politely explained my friends are constantly trying to set me up with people & I wanted to know where we stand, was calm. An honest discussion ensued, we decided we were not exclusive. The previously mentioned trip to visit him? Axed because I said I didn’t want to emotionally invest. All honesty, no resentment. Totally normal between us.

All day Friday he texted me & home dude never texts me all day, barely texts at all. Ever. Not into it. Our next phone call? He brings up that topic saying he’s thought about it, & wants to be exclusive.

I suggested his previous argument, he says he feels he can’t be a boyfriend from so far away…but that he wants us to be able to discuss whatever is on our minds. And I know he’s still thinking about it, & me.

Granted this is the guy who prefers voice time over text time, lets me talk more than any other guy I’ve ‘dated,’ & didn’t bring up anything intimate for three months. (And i attended college with his sister whose cool as fuck.) This time makes up for all the times I was honest & wondered ‘am I being THAT girl?!’ because this guy simply asked me to explain what I wanted, why & told me to talk as much as I wanted about it.

Remember when I used to be a blogger?
6ish weeks ago I was offered that opportunity to do something in my field that wasn’t just sit at the reference desk & wait for the public to ask you questions. I actually have more of a chance to be proactive in the community I serve, put my experience (nearly 6 years) to even better use than ever before. And not have to work multiple jobs.

Today was one of the first days I didn’t feel grateful to be there. My anxiety has been pretty high lately, & living alone I’m grateful I can call a BFF on the way home from work & vent…then watch duck dynasty & watch what happens live to laugh & relax. And maybe have a Ralph’s Italian ice. A small.

In trying to regain the positive & start tomorrow off right, I have to say I had an adult meeting this morning about my life insurance & my current policy is skewing a scam. In a few weeks ill be worth even more (dead than alive!), & be on a better path to my future. And, I finally succumbed to a big tumblr trend: my friend & I have agreed to be running buddies. I started the Couch to 5K this week, small move but a big one for me as I never saw myself as a runner…& I may never be anything more than a glorified jogger but am going to give it a try. Thanks to SS who has agreed to give C25K a go with me this Spring.
I’ve been given a big chance career wise, which gives me the chance to devote time to improve other aspects of my life. Getting healthy is first on my self-cleanse to-do list.

I mentioned to my mom that the guy I’ve sort of been seeing long distance, wasn’t opposed to going to an out of state wedding with me. The wedding was planned pretty quick, I’m not sure i will be able to go with my new job situation, but it was nice he wanted to entertain the idea. It made me happy for a moment, but Mom immediately said its too soon for me to bring that up & ill scare him away, essentially. Which is what she said about the last guy who broke my heart, & shed said it just as brusquely.

Then she asked when I was bringing him over for dinner. Never.